there is no fear in love..

i have been thinking about how scared i am. about a lot of things.
mark has commented on it a lot too so i know its a problem. i love my husband and how gentle he is with me. He always points me back to the Word.....which is where i am tonight.
I have done a lot of word studies on the word "fear" and ill walk away feeling the Lord strengthen me...but then a few days or weeks later i feel back at square one. and it seems to be getting worse as the years go by.

i'm not sure the root of this fear though. i am praying about it and want it revealed so i can totally surrender this and let Him heal me.

its selfish of me to hold on. to put fear above Christ.

Psa 27:1 [[[A Psalm] of David.]] The LORD [is] my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD [is] the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

Psa 27:3 Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this [will] I [be] confident.

Psa 34:7 The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them.

Psa 56:4 In God I will praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do unto me.

so im in the middle of this "fear" study when all of a sudden i hear what sounds like 4 gun shots in our neighborhood. my heart jumped in my throat. i instantly panicked. Thank you Lord for that test. and for calming me down!

Psa 118:6 The LORD [is] on my side; I will not fear: what can man do unto me?

Pro 1:33 But whoso hearkeneth unto me shall dwell safely, and shall be quiet from fear of evil.

Pro 3:25 Be not afraid of sudden fear, neither of the desolation of the wicked, when it cometh.

Ecc 3:14 I know that, whatsoever God doeth, it shall be for ever: nothing can be put to it, nor any thing taken from it: and God doeth [it], that [men] should fear before him.

Ecc 12:13 Let us hear the conclusion of the whole matter: Fear God, and keep his commandments: for this [is] the whole [duty] of man.

Isa 14:3 ¶ And it shall come to pass in the day that the LORD shall give thee rest from thy sorrow, and from thy fear, and from the hard bondage wherein thou wast made to serve....


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i needed to read that above verse! wow.....thank you Lord........

Isa 35:4 Say to them [that are] of a fearful heart, Be strong, fear not: behold, your God will come [with] vengeance, [even] God [with] a recompence; he will come and save you.

Isa 41:10 Fear thou not; for I [am] with thee: be not dismayed; for I [am] thy God: I will strengthen thee; yea, I will help thee; yea, I will uphold thee with the right hand of my righteousness.

Isa 41:13 For I the LORD thy God will hold thy right hand, saying unto thee, Fear not; I will help thee.

Isa 43:1 But now thus saith the LORD that created thee, O Jacob, and he that formed thee, O Israel, Fear not: for I have redeemed thee, I have called [thee] by thy name; thou [art] mine.

Isa 44:8 Fear ye not, neither be afraid: have not I told thee from that time, and have declared [it]? ye [are] even my witnesses. Is there a God beside me? yea, [there is] no God; I know not [any].

Luk 8:50 But when Jesus heard [it], he answered him, saying, Fear not: believe only, and she shall be made whole.

Luk 12:5 But I will forewarn you whom ye shall fear: Fear him, which after he hath killed hath power to cast into hell; yea, I say unto you, Fear him.

Luk 12:7 But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows.

Rom 8:15 For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father.

2Cr 7:1 Having therefore these promises, dearly beloved, let us cleanse ourselves from all filthiness of the flesh and spirit, perfecting holiness in the fear of God.

Hbr 13:6 So that we may boldly say, The Lord [is] my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do unto me.

1Jo 4:18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love.

Rev 2:10 Fear none of those things which thou shalt suffer: behold, the devil shall cast [some] of you into prison, that ye may be tried; and ye shall have tribulation ten days: be thou faithful unto death, and I will give thee a crown of life.

well, thats all for tonight.
hope you were blessed as i was.
love, Gina

stretching...

you know that moment you have right before something huge is about to happen? i have that feeling.

 i have been praying for a long time, God use me. i want to do something big for You. i want to get out of my comfort zone. i want to help. Specifically, He has put the broken on my heart. the ones that are in such despair that they are thinking of taking their own life. 

i have never been in that place personally but have struggled with depression. and have known a man that was and ended his life. i saw him a few months before it happened. he was popular. he had a lot of friends. he seemed happy the last time i saw him. but it was a lie. how many people are around me that are thinking of taking their own lives? that are too scared to reach out for help and talk to someone? 

i found the Post Secret App for the iphone/ipod and i started seeing all the people that were trying to reach out for help on there. it was beautiful seeing all these strangers come together and try and help this hurting person. unfortunately you were at the mercy of that person and couldn't hold a conversation because the app would shut down or that person could just delete their post. or it could get flagged which would get it deleted. 

after the App was shut down i was searching for ways to help. to get involved. thats how i found ImAlive. its a great idea. and i can't wait to get behind it. i have no experience in that field BUT more than anything i want to be there for anyone that feels that way. i want to be on the other end to love on this person and let them know they are not alone. that people care. 

God created us with a purpose. i know its easy sometimes to get away from that and live for ourselves. when you get away from the truth and Gods word, satan will do everything he can to deceive you. to destroy you. 

there IS hope. 

ImAlive requires a commitment of 4 hours a week for training and volunteering. i started thinking about it...there are so many things i waste 4 hours of time on in just one week... i could spend 4 hours in one evening just watching my shows. 

thats another thing--while watching said shows there was always this thought in the back of my head, this is so vain. i could be doing so much more. 

its an honor to give up this things to train and grow and get to be there for these beautiful people that need help. It's a calling. i cannot not listen. i can't wait to get started. . 

if you are interested in what I'm talking about, heres the link:

ImAlive

please pray for me as God leads me through this. I'm very excited about it and seeing where He takes me with this. 

here are some verses that I'm coming to that i know is my reason:

Psa 78:7 That they might set their hope in God, and not forget the works of God, but keep his commandments:

Rom 15:13 Now the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing, that ye may abound in hope, through the power of the Holy Ghost.

2Cr 1:3 ¶ Blessed [be] God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;

2Cr 1:4 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

2Cr 1:5 For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ.

2Cr 1:6 And whether we be afflicted, [it is] for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, [it is] for your consolation and salvation.

2Cr 1:7 And our hope of you [is] stedfast, knowing, that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so [shall ye be] also of the consolation.

2Cr 1:8 ¶ For we would not, brethren, have you ignorant of our trouble which came to us in Asia, that we were pressed out of measure, above strength, insomuch that we despaired even of life:

2Cr 1:9 But we had the sentence of death in ourselves, that we should not trust in ourselves, but in God which raiseth the dead:

2Cr 1:10 Who delivered us from so great a death, and doth deliver: in whom we trust that he will yet deliver [us];

2Cr 1:11 Ye also helping together by prayer for us, that for the gift [bestowed] upon us by the means of many persons thanks may be given by many on our behalf.

2Cr 1:12 ¶ For our rejoicing is this, the testimony of our conscience, that in simplicity and godly sincerity, not with fleshly wisdom, but by the grace of God, we have had our conversation in the world, and more abundantly to you-ward.

1Pe 3:15 But sanctify the Lord God in your hearts: and [be] ready always to [give] an answer to every man that asketh you a reason of the hope that is in you with meekness and fear:

Psa 69:20 Reproach hath broken my heart; and I am full of heaviness: and I looked [for some] to take pity, but [there was] none; and for comforters, but I found none.

Psa 147:3 He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds.

Pro 25:25 [As] cold waters to a thirsty soul, so [is] good news from a far country.

and basically all of 1 Peter chapter 4. 

Pro 12:25 Heaviness in the heart of man maketh it stoop: but a good word maketh it glad.

thanks for reading!

love, Gina

mercies are new every morning

its 2012. I'm still having a hard time accepting this. this year is a milestone year. i met Mark 10 years ago this year. 10 years ago i re-dedicated my life to the Lord. i grew to know HIM so much in 2002. it was a beautiful year.  Mark and i will be married 7 years this year.
but i'm also at a place where i don't like. I've been lazy and unappreciative. I'm SO blessed. when i think about it, i really can't complain. i have a roof over my head, food to eat, heat, I'm not in any pain....
there are so many people hurting all around me. in far worse situation than me.

i came to this verse a few weeks ago:
Psa 5:11 But let all those that put their trust in thee rejoice: let them ever shout for joy, because thou defendest them: let them also that love thy name be joyful in thee.


when i get into one of my moods i know i make it all about me. i am not focusing on the Lord and what He has done for me and this life he's given me. every minute i have is a blessing. time spent with my husband, with family, or friends. i should never take it for granted. if Christ lives and dwells in me, then there is no excuse for my attitude. its my flesh. God help me. 



2Cr 13:4 For though he was crucified through weakness, yet he liveth by the power of God. For we also are weak in him, but we shall live with him by the power of God toward you.




2Cr 13:5 Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?



Gal 2:20 I am crucified with Christ: nevertheless I live; yet not I, but Christ liveth in me: and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by the faith of the Son of God, who loved me, and gave himself for me.

by the way, it pasted that in bold. i didn't select that. that was very weird. God is trying to tell me something.

i have a list that i want to take care of. i want to cross these things off this year and will be blogging to myself about it.  here they are:

take an hour (or more) out of my day for the Lord.

get my cholesterol down. take care of this temple He's blessed me with. lose all this weight i packed on. reverse the diabetes i got myself into.

i want to cook more healthy meals. i want to encourage my husband and make it easier for him to lose this weight too. (i plan on making a lot of meals from Pinterest. I'm finding a ton of encouraging and fun stuff on there.)

i want to RUN more! i miss running! i used to love it! i still do, Its just hidden down deep in my selfishness.

more than anything, i want to be thankful. always. God, give me a heart of thankfulness. take away this pride and selfishness. I'm here only for you and your plan for my life. its such a blessing to be a child of the King of kings!  i should never take that for granted.

Col 3:15 And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to the which also ye are called in one body; and be ye thankful.