Empty

Have you ever missed someone so much it hurt? Physical pain? My grandma has been absent from the body and present with The Lord for 45 days now. I miss her terribly. I miss her smile. Her hug. Her being. She's gone. I can't find her here. When I call my grandpa her voice is still the greeting on the answering machine. I know I'll see her again. I'm thankful for that. But the reality of her gone brings me to my knees. God please help me. It hurts so bad.

Gone

You're gone. 

Cards keep coming. They are sweet. 

The days are hard. And the nights long. 

The cards are covering the table. 

People visit. They glance at the cards. 

They are little standing pieces of paper symbolizing your absence. 

Time goes by. 

Cards stop coming. 

Do we take them down? Put them away? Can we keep them there forever? 

Like you're coming back to read them. 

Just want you to come back. Make the cards disappear. Wouldn't have a reason for them. 

Days go by. 

The cards are put away. 

We sit in silence. I stare at where they used to be. 

He left one standing. 

She's not coming back.  

The nights are long and the days are empty with out you. 

I said it.

Damn you sinuses. Literally. I mean that. 

Definition of damn: 

1. 1.

   (in Christian belief) be condemned by God to suffer eternal punishment in hell.

   "be forever damned with Lucifer"

   
   

   
   

   I don't remember a time before I could breathe normal.