Empty

Have you ever missed someone so much it hurt? Physical pain? My grandma has been absent from the body and present with The Lord for 45 days now. I miss her terribly. I miss her smile. Her hug. Her being. She's gone. I can't find her here. When I call my grandpa her voice is still the greeting on the answering machine. I know I'll see her again. I'm thankful for that. But the reality of her gone brings me to my knees. God please help me. It hurts so bad.